Today was a pretty hectic day. My alarm rang way too early for a Sunday morning 'cause there was a lot of work to do and since the upcoming week won't be less stressful I'm trying to enjoy my evenings at home to the fullest. Snuggling up in my PJs, wearing my monkey socks and doing a face face mask while listening to music and having a cup of hot tea is what really helps me to relax and calm down. I totally need this time for me to think about almost everything that has been on my mind the whole day long more deeply. I figured that if I make up my mind and take some time to think about my feelings and emotions consciously I feel more balanced and pleased. I started to ask myself why I am feeling the way I am feeling in certain situations and if being angry or feeling sad is reasonable or just an excuse for something else I might messed up or feel unsatisfied with. Sometimes it's easier to be angry and pissed instead of overthinking why you feel this way and maybe just admit that you're simply hurt. I strive to live a more honest life which starts by being honest to yourself and I figured that if I question my feelings and face my emotions I feel more calm and settled. So in that moment it doesn't matter if I feel pain or love or desperation or anger or pure happiness, I enjoy it and I take my time to overthink every single one of it. Because it makes me more aware of myself as the person I truly am and not the person society tells me to be. Overthinking my feelings and being such an introspective person makes me a more creative person which inspires me to new ways of thinking. We always get taught to act rationally instead of making decisions more intuitively as it would be our human nature. I wanna make decisions out of love and happiness and not because I am told to do so by other people. As you look back on your life you will see that the decisions you made out of love are never the ones to regret. But that's another story. So for today (or shall I say tonight?) let's just end this little train of thought, go to bed and get some sleep. And for the ones out there who still need a little bit of inspiration, here are some of my favorite writings which I stumbled upon during the last couple of days. Good Night! xx
"Remember that everyone you meet is afraid of something, loves something and has lost something."
H. Jackson Brown Jr.
"Those who love you are not fooled by mistakes you have made or dark images you hold about yourself. They remember your beauty when you feel ugly; your wholeness when you are broken; your innocence when you feel guilty; and your purpose when you are confused."
"I regret that it takes a life to learn how to live."
"There is one simple thing wrong with you - you think you have plenty of time. If you don't think your life is going to last forever, what are you waiting for? Why the hesitation to change? You don't have time for this display, you fool. This, whatever you're doing now, may be your last act on earth. It may very well be your last battle. There is no power which could guarantee that you are going to live one more minute."
"It all depends on how we look at things, and not how they are in themselves."
"I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see."
"And that's why we have two hands - One, to hold the ones we love dearly. And the other one, to hold ourselves. So please do not lose yourself when you are holding onto another person. Please remember to not let yourself go."
"You wish you could have learned to play piano. You wish you could have started drawing when you were young. You wish you could have figured out who you wanted to be before you graduated college. You wish you could have learned to love yourself sooner. Well, you know what? You didn't And that's just something you're going to have to learn to deal with. But just because you didn't do it sooner, doesn't mean you can't start now."
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